Kadang tu aku kesian dkt org diri sendiri sbb tngok muka org lain lawa, flawless pastu berangan nk jadi mcm dorang.

Most of them maintenance tinggi.
Tak mampu nak follow. Murah dorang tu 1 item je 50 (mahal pada aku), itu tak kira lg beauty treatment....

Haihh
Last-last aku fikir, takpe laaa.
Andai ade rezeki nk flawless, pakai laa produk ape pun InsyaAllah dapat.

Tak mampu dah nak keep up with people’s expectation.

Mungkin ade org fikir, eleh ini pilihan kau sendiri, kau yg nk capai expectation org.

But little that they know,
aku terikut dngn expectation tu.

Why? Its more to How?
Bila org starts “complaining” YOUR looks.

Mula sikit-sikit, sorang dua okay lagi.
Lama-lama jadi insecure, anxiety.
Overall looks plak tu jadi issue, smpai bukan nk kata ape laa, I became negatively affected..
I starts to think yg dunia ni revolves around org2 cantik je, my point of view “kalau tak cantik kau tkkan ke mana”

Even some of my teachers pun thought mcm tu, ye mmng aku selekeh but masa tu I know nothing expect having fun and just buat kerja aku.
Some of them yg tak heran pun effort kau buat kerja, sbb ye laa tak lawa and no talent, perwatakkan plak mcm abang-abang.

Dunia aku dulu, aku jarang jumpa MOST yang baik tak pandang rupa semua, aku banyak jumpa yg SOME.

This affects me till today...
And I struggle to get rid of these thoughts of myself.

Dulu tak berisi sngt pun org kata berisi, padahal ade jgk packs
Sekarang, emm berat tak turun-turun pun even jarang makan. (Sblm Ramadan) stress maybe, but slowly aku tngh cari core factor..
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