how i changed

;a thread

most of the people who get to "know" me think that i'm this naive, shy and quite girl, except some of my school friends and family members.

i wasn't like this in the past. yes, i had difficulty in starting a proper conversation w a stranger or alone keep it going, but i was not always this quite girl as many of you tend to think.

i used to joke around or sometimes kinda flirt w people wishlist my best friend's support. but again everyone and everything changes w time right? and so did i. i changed.

i changed right after i came to the capital city for further studies, high school/ college that is. i travelled from my hometown the very next day after the examination of SEE was completed.

i could've stayed at my hometown as there was three months long holiday but i choose otherwise. my fault. those three months changed me a lot. a lot more than i've probably imagined. but this is what life is, always different from our imagination.

i rarely went exploring the outside world after i came to this capital city. it wasn't anything new to me. i always loved staying inside rarely ever going outside. but a lot of things were different and new. i was unfamiliar w the environment, people and everything.

three months staying inside didn't help me improve my not-so-good socializing skills. i would've been a little bit good or let's say i would've improved my skills a tiny bit if i hadn't been ignoring the texts of my friends. the texting helps right? it's a type of socialization?

yes, i regret not texting them back but i also feel quite in relief cutting out some of the toxic people outta my life.

after those three months the time came when i had to come outta my the space and face the world. new place. new faces. new experience. new me?

new me? yes, y'all are right it's a question because this is the actual phase which led me to change completely. the things that happened after joining high school.

okay... so i'm gonna keep this thread on-hold cuz you gotta have some motivation to continue it which i'm definitely not having these days. so yeah. this is it. this is the tweet. x