truly i am losing my fucking mind of this. next chapter we break 100k words. who am i. what is this, there exists another 20k in my drafts, I'm still not done writing this. When Does It End.

trwamtp is one of my proudest accomplishments, I never imagined I would actually bring it this far, that it would have the popularity it does. I just wanted to write out a simple thought I had and it has expanded into so much more

a lot of the times this fic overwhelms me, I get stressed by it, I did not expect it to garner so wide an audience, and I worry constantly when I write chapters now that I'm going to disappoint someone. It's a hard feeling to take when writing is something I want to do for fun

it's part of the reason I've been struggling with the current chapter. There is so much background now to deal with, so much of canon I still have to tie back to, and I drown in the details of it, in the thought that if I get it wrong it ruins everything people like about it

I will never begrudge anyone for that though, these are my personal struggles with my writing. and it means the world to me how much people have liked and theorized about something I wrote. I've received reviews on this fic that made me cry out of joy, it will always be worth it

The closer we get to the end the more I think about things like this, and lately I post chapters with equal parts excitement and apprehension, but it is what it is