i think i'm gonna go to farmfoods tomorrow. it's literally across the road and while its selection isn't great, there's no way i can go to morrisons again

I have had a panic attack (at least) every time I've been in there; the customers don't give a shit about this virus and the staff care even less. the queue to get into the store is barricaded on either side so you're trapped between people with no escape

last time i was queueing for 20 minutes and by the time i entered i had scratched off a fair bit of the back of my hand without even realising.

you'd think a bleeding, blue haired, masked oik rocking back and forth might dissuade folks from getting within 2m. you'd be wrong.

i'm literally just thinking about shopping and my heart rate has shot up

it's one of those being poor is expensive things. if i were rich, i could own a car, and then do a month's shop in one go, taking advantage of multibuys and the like. as it is it's just me and my backpack

(obviously the delivery slots for all supermarkets are booked up so i literally have no other choice but to go out most days and I swear i come back about 4 years older every single time

i've always had cabin fever when locked in for more than a day, as long as i can remember, and just a quick walk to the shops solved it. now it's a choice between cabin fever and oh fuck some crusty old bastard's gonna cough on me and he'll never know the ham he's done

there's no point to this thread like, i am just feeling super fucking horrid at 5am

gonna go bed see what happens