alright I wanna do stuff but if I am honest-

long thread because I spilled some feels

I honestly don't know why, I just feel like everything I do usually ends up leading to a disappoinment, I am scared of failing, of disappointing literally anyone, of annoying others, of simple mistakes-

This all has been probably developed because everytime I made a mistake I have always been given bad looks, screamed at, nobody would ever listen to me, to nothing of what I said, now I can barely express my feelings because of that.

When I ended up telling others, and I specifically told them not to tell anyone else, they betrayed me too, like now I feel like I can't trust anyone at all because of that and more

Now, when coming to stuff, if something is broken and I try to fix it, I somehow always fuck it up more, dunno how the heck but it usually happens, and of course, instead of listening to me and understanding me, let scream more, why not, let me fix the stuff myself.

I am just asking everyone to give me time, everything here and there is just a big deadline I can't handle, even when something has not ended yet, they expect more and more, and with even more deadlines each closer to the others.
I just want some time. Please.

Alright, sorry for this thread, it was all stuff I wanted to get out of my chest somehow, there you have it, again, sorry if I am annoying and stuff like that.

tl,dr: I am just scared of absolutely everything.

Hope you all have a good day.