Before I was a communist and a trans woman you see now

I was that really weird incel person who sat on right wing websites all day who played video games and shit on anyone who wasn't "me". I was very much into the right wing tea party and growing neo american fascist movement
name a right wing rabbit hole, occult website or form I had postings there at one point. I very much didn't believe in the idea that trans people were people just a bunch of Ill cross dressing weirdos into anime or weeb girls I used to sit on the trap threads in 2006
"for obvious reasons" i sat and went on so many in skype and ts rants about 3rd wave feminism. i idolized serial killers, dictators, school shooters and others. i was a really creepy guy in high school and said and did a lot of things that im pretty upset about
we all have pasts and mine for all intents and purposes was the exact opposite of the woman you see today.

The most interesting thing about contra and a good chunk of trans people, generally speaking, go through some of the worst truama or life experiences before transition
I'm not really sure how common but I think the reason why there is such a disconnect with different trans people's experiences is how we dealt with it I internalized all of my feelings and picked to opposite of how I felt as a child. I wanted so badly to find meaning in dysphoria
So I think a lot of the discouse is really people coming to terms to trans life at different times, generations, ages and knowledge areas.

It's just a really complicated subject to talk about trans life productively without feeling like we're invalidating experiences.
That's all. Thanks for reading.
I was a former fash, I stanned America super hard, I loved capitalism and wanted Ethno-nationalism and ethnostates and hated brown and black folx.

It takes so much work to unlearn and grow and move beyond that.
Transitioning to me is not just being a girl owo. It's burying every last trace of my old self and being the person I knew I was at a young age taking a life back I never had or kept myself from
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