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I’m mad because my most liked post on instagram is this sht like I didn’t even put that much effort on it and 219 people SAVED IT?! Like in drawings I actually put effort I get like 20 likes maximum, this is so sad and discouraging, it breaks my heart because +
I really really like drawing but numbers affect the way I see my art, I can’t really help getting sad and frustrated, that’s why I kind of abandoned posting my drawings of instagram because I feel like in Twitter my mutuals appreciate it even thought I don’t even get 5 likes +
And I know being an artist isn’t about numbers but I feel like I’ve failed, I see people on here posting drawings and getting 5k likes while I don’t even get a quarter of my followers to engage with my posts and that makes me question myself constantly +
And for example, this shitty sketch for like 130 likes?! What the hell ? It’s not like I’m complaining but my other drawings, witch I’ve put an enormous amount of time don’t even get any attention from anyone, not even my friends +
Also don’t think I don’t put tags in my posts because I do! I put a lot of tags on them and even post them on my stories but nothing is actually working, I don’t even know what to do anymore because I’ve tried everything posible but people just seem to ignore me +
Am I really that annoying? Are my drawings really that bad that my own followers just ignore them like it’s shit or something? What have I done to deserve this? Art is the only thing that actually makes me think I have some sort of value, even though I’m not that good +
But I try, I try to survive but I feel like no one is here for me, no one even cares about my art and I’m sorry Im about to spam your feed but keep ingoring me please, just ignore me and my art because I have no worth, I have nothing besides art and I don’t deserve anything
I wrote this down in here because I know this will just disappear in the twitter feed, like it always does but if actually anyone reads until here let me tell you that I love you and thanks for reading my annoying thoughts
Goodnight to everyone and I hope you had a nice day
And I don’t care if I’ve repeated myself on this thread because I don’t care anymore, I don’t care and I don’t give a fuck, just fuck numbers and social media
I’ve archived all my drawings, don’t giving a fuck about my most engaged drawings because if I don’t feel proud about it, it doesn’t matter because it’s not a beautiful fame, it’s an horrendous destroyer, destroyer of morals and feelings
And I won’t lie, when I got all those numbers I got pretty excited because I though people finally acknowledged my art but I couldn’t be more wrong, are really all my sketches everything that matters from my art? Why do I even bother finishing them if no one likes it+
Unfortunately this isn’t the first time I’ve created an art account from 0 in instagram because the same problem repeated it self, I just don’t know what to do, I’m I really not made to make art? I’m I not enough? What should I do?
Should I just keep my art to myself? Should I just disappear and don’t post anything? Delete my social media? I feel pretty lost and alone
