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Thread on why Clannad means so much to me
Quick heads up- this thread is rough, and was hard to write. There’s stuff I left out since it’s hard to get into, but I think I managed to get most of it down.
I watched Clannad in 2016, probably the worst year of my life. It was when my father started going out of control, telling me to kill myself, calling me a nuisance, and even breaking up with my step mum, someone I still to this day consider to be the best person-
I’ve ever met, but can’t talk to her or know how she’s doing since my father cut all forms of contact with her.
Thing is, when my father broke up with her, he did it while me and him were in the plane, going to a completely different continent, and the last time I saw my step mother, she was crying, because she suspected that he was breaking up with her since he kept talking to-
someone else, but she wasn’t sure. The day before my father and I left, I told her not to worry and that we would be back, but that obviously didn’t happen. Couple this with the fact that my dad was always drunk and insulting me, I wasn’t really sure what to do with myself.
I knew I couldn’t really do much regarding the situation with my step mum since I was so young, but i still hated myself for how it well down because of the last moments, and so I blamed myself, and thought that maybe I didn’t have any worth
Weeks later, I had to go back to living with my biological mum, since they decided to get married again from some reason.
Tomoya losing Nagisa, and then hating himself, regretting it all, and even being downright depressed is how I felt when i lost my step mother. I wasn’t able to talk to her, and I couldn’t talk about her since my father didn’t want me to, and he never told my biological mum that-
