Today is not my favorite day. I dont want to celebrate someone that was emotionally abusive and manipulative for years as well as the main contributor to my mental illness.

Like sure we are on 100 times better terms now but that doesnt change the fact that I wanted to lay down in traffic at 11 years old because of this woman

Fun fact if i didnt send a message or anything today I would be bombarded with guilt tripping and manipulative texts about how awful and ungrateful I am. Still living with the anxiety that if I do something wrong I will be berated and called names.

Im going to delete this thread later because thats how paranoid and terrified I am that she will somehow see it and lash out at me about how awful and undeserving of everything I am.