With it being Mental Health Awareness month, I wanted to share a little bit on my mental health and how the quarantine has effected it. First off, the human body is not made for isolation. We need each other, we need our daily interactions with others in order to fulfill life...

Depression and deeply immersive anxiety have had the best of me for a while now, this quarantine has only turned those up even higher. Consecutive days without bathing, or eating anything, sleeping every other day and when I do sleep it’s graveyard shift like...

Drastic mood swings, suicidal thoughts, just totally shutting down both physically and emotionally, feeling number than numb if that makes sense. Constantly playing a video game or watching something of my interest to try and keep my mind off of all the negativity...

Just not wanting to be alone with my thoughts. A lot of dissociation, thorough recollections of trauma in my life both as an adult and a child. Getting upset at the way my brain’s processed it’s response to trauma over the years.

Basically just a lot of really shitty things, and while I know it’s not the brightest thing to share with everyone at this time. It’s vital information as well because now more than ever is when you should be checking on your friends, esp. those with mental illnesses or disorders

It also helps for family/friends/people/whoever to get a better understanding of what their loved ones are going through. My gf has been such a fucking rock for me not only throughout our whole relationship but she’s been EXTRA amazing during this quarantine...

She’s patient and understanding with me, she’s empathetic of what I’m feeling, she asks the right questions when need to be asked, she lets me talk when I need to talk, she gives me silence when I need silence, she pushes me just enough when I need to be pushed...

She’s got a great way of always pointing out the positive when I’m locked in on the negative, she lets me cry when I need to cry, she believes in me, she supports me, she loves me unconditionally. There aren’t words to explain my appreciation and gratitude for her...

I hope this thread helps shed some light on mental illnesses and mental disorders, what they can do to people, and help break the stigma around mental health illnesses and disorders. At the end of the day you and your feelings matter!!! There’s nothing to apologize for!!!