this morning is exceptionally hard for me having already been in isolation for over 2 months now and having Mother& #39;s Day thoughts on my mind. today is affecting me more emotionally than usual, but it& #39;s such a beautiful day for so many people, and i am enjoying your joy.

she& #39;s dead now and i& #39;m still not over it. that& #39;s what therapy is for, right? should have done it decades ago. i think my life would have been different if i had confronted her and faced my fear of her. but instead i weathered her abuse.

it& #39;s too hard to get into all of this now, but i need to, but it& #39;s just really bad timing being in isolation. so i& #39;ll be back on this thread at some point just probably not today. or maybe when the day is dawning.