I would have written a sappy mother's day post,if only my mother wasnt so obsessed about my weight,to the point of checking it everyday and denying me a proper dinner on a daily basis :(

If only she acknowledged my dad's temper tantrums instead of saying it was his right to be how much ever angry he could because he is the "man of the family"

If only she didnt dismiss my voice and gaslight me by saying that my opinions are of no worth because i have not earned the right to open my mouth anywhere anytime(now you know why i talk so much on twitter)

If only she could be a little kind instead of belittling my soul and crushing my spirit in a thousand ways everyday.

If only. If only. If fucking only. Sorry, but I cant fucking do mother's day when my mother has scarred me for life.

This is not to say she hasnt done anything good for me. She sacrificed her whole youth for me. She cuts me fruit. She took care of me while i was sick and stuffed my wallet with money when i was going out with my friends.

But that does not give her pass to treat me badly. That does not legitimize her parental abuse. I am saying this out aloud because i know that I am not alone. There is a sordid history to mother-daughter relationships that these sappy ass mother's day platitudes hide very well.

*give her a pass