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Time for another intimate introspective investigation no one asked for from me, and boy are we getting a thread today children!
So I posted on insta yesterday a photo of me a bit more edgy than usual and I felt dread posting it. The idea of it being misread as cringe ran through my mind because I wanted to feel how I looked there, hence if the photo was rejected by my peers it means I failed, to me.
I also was very active in the cringe period of 2016 AND now interact with the very toxic community of drag race so I started policing my thoughts in order to not be seen as cringe and as I write this I'm like 'this is cringe in itself'
The photo had this confidence to it, whereas usually I'm much more, in my opinion, docile on insta with my photos. The response was good though! I've really been having some changes in my image and my view of it so I thought I'd document the change into this new confidence.
I watched a video on cringe today and it blew open so many ideas and some answers on how we cope with embarrassment and awkwardness. I usually feel empathetic cringe with teachers failing to control a class or a performer struggling to hold an audience.
This is because the audience has total ownership of how you are treated. I cringe to learn what not to do. But by doing that I limit my own expressiveness. It IS good to know when its best to talk about anime or how not to look stupid trying to be confident.
However we as people now more than ever love to dog pile others. It's a type of schadenfreude I guess. Saying the wrong thing or dressing the wrong way (I.e. not being cringe) is SO prevalent today. No I'm not advocating for free speech, you're still not allowed to say the n word
But recently I just kinda realised that I'm not that big a deal in the best way possible. I'll do cringe shit, (like this thread lololol) but is everyone always thinking about my cringe? No, they're thinking about theirs. And that's really freeing to me.
But if you're inviting hate for the contemptuous kinda cringe a la cringe compilations then it could likely something about how you may see yourself in them. They're the bad ones who make us look bad. They're the reason (x)-phobes exist. No, those people existed before cringe...
So yeah anyway go watch this reeeeeeeally long video if you suffer like I do with debilitating image issues cuz it helped put this into words.
The vid:
