2 years ago, if i had been overthinking too much i would most likely run to my boyfriend back then and try to help me overcome those thoughts and fears that I can't bear to keep, but hindi yun yung nangyayari, he will always tell me na "ang drama mo" "tang***ano na naman"
I will always feel such a burden to him and also to everyone, because he made me feel that my thoughts and feelings doesn't matter. He told me I was weak and I believed him.
Fast forward to now ang funny isipin yung mga sinasabi niya before trying to deny those things that he did. I told myself never again will I give others na lokohin lang ako. Still after that experience, sobrang traumatized ko.
Pero grabe talaga yung lengths that people will go through to deny what they did kahit ginawa naman talaga nila.
When I realized he was cheating, I confronted him. And he denied it. Back then I was stupid enough to give him the benefit of the doubt, because I trusted him I wanted to believe na hindi na niloloko niya ako. Kahit deep down I already knew.