i don’t think i, or anyone else, has really taken into account that the reason i don’t feel like doing anything is bc everyone told me that my work last year would pay off and now we gotta stay inside and there is no touring & I REALLY DON’T WANNA GIVE “CONTENT” ANYMORE

don’t get me wrong. i love filming shit and writing songs and being a headass for a living, however scheduled shit gets a hard no from me right now.

that’s a mental health blind spot i kinda ignored. a bitch never got to properly celebrate and showcase a year’s work.

and i felt bad for not being as active on IG and missing deadlines for press and not doing verses but honestly

fuck that

i’m reminding myself that this it’s okay to need time. i love the project i made so much.

but 2020 robbed me of the fun part.

making trillers and tiktoks to drive engagement isn’t fuckin fun unless i can go outside and sing these songs forreal.

thank GOD i got to do tiny desk right before this corona shit happened. cuz otherwise, idk how i’d feel.

i *been* doing internet shit. i was ready to perform.

i’m okay, just so y’all know. i just had an epiphany (as i always fuckin do, i swear i’m a broken record)

how i feel makes sense. i’m not lazy, i’m just bummed.

i feel like i JUST missed the train.