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A thread no one asked for: I’m leaving Pullman tomorrow to go back to the 530 & two days ago my mom asked me how much I’m going to miss Zack. I responded with the obvious “an astronomical amount” she laughed at me and brushed it off saying we could FaceTime
Under normal circumstances FaceTimes and calls getting through 3 months wouldn’t be a problem. But since there is the real possibility that fall semester (my last semester) will be online. There is also the possibility that I won’t see my best friend until January
And I know that may not be the biggest deal but we missed out on almost every event because of me. I feel SO guilty that all the mems didn’t happen because I was anxious, insecure and spread too thin.
In August we didn’t go because I was tired because I had to attend a training for a program that turned out to be the worst part of my college experience. Didn’t go to his formal or date dashes that semester because I feel self conscious in all my clothes and drinking
Spring semester events were minimal anyways but I landed a wonderful internship that gave me so much. I was spread too thin, was going 14 hours a day so when the weekend finally came around I was too tired to even think of going out.
(This has a point I promise) for Christmas he surprised me with a Marc E. Bassy concert in Portland the weekend before spring break. I was so stressed about being behind in school and my obligations but I decided I needed to stop putting our relationship on the back burner
This turned out to be his second to last show due to covid. It was one of the best weekends of my entire life and gave me little regret going into a remote semester. Even though I missed out on college and friends junior year I knew in the long run I was bettering my future
Through me flaking on events and being anxious during so much uncertainty he’s been an emotional rock for me. He’s been so supportive and pushed me to finish strong despite my sick grandparents and my mental health being in the trash
The beginning of the semester our relationship was a routine, it was a small portion of our busy lives passing each other a couple times a week. It was disconnected. Weirdly enough through quarantine, we’ve become so much closer in so many new ways
Its out of character for me to put my relationship out like this, but all of this makes it so much harder to think of leaving right now, and possibly not experiencing going to the Coug and having a last year of college bliss when life all things considered, is so good.
I don’t want this last one to be a CDC PSA but I want to employ no matter how everything is effecting you right now, no matter how big or small it is valid. You don’t need to feel that your sadness over missing out on life is irrelevant bc people are sick. It is sad mourn them!
But also pls pls practice social distancing and mask wearing because I do want to go back to Pullman come August and this pandemic is not individual
Also I love you @Zack_Aketch
