Tbh i feel like hating myself everytime the thought of not getting scholarship from petronas come across my mind bcs they also gave money for the students to buy things they need for a college student such as laptop.

I mean ik that a lot of well off people get scholarship but—

That doesnt means that there is no people who is not. So for me petronas doing so means that they care for their students and they want the best for them.

I'm not the 'poor' type but still for me getting a good laptop is quite suffocating bcs of the price (i want it—

to last long) so i look for the affordable one and found one which is around 2.1k. Yes my mother gave 1.5k for the laptop but that is enough if i buy the hdd storage. Demand for ssd? I said it earlier i want it to last long (thinking of just proceed with hdd actually)

And i planned to use the bpn money rm200 to top up the money my mother gave (and my savings). But guess what? Things happen, today is the last day of ipts to give students the 200 and not even one of us get it.

I keep saying to myself. If only i do better in the interview—

or get good results then i don't need to burden anyone. To burden my mother for that. If only i applied all the scholar/sponsorship in the list i had, maybe i can get one that is like petronas. Sometimes life sure is sucks.

Going to delete this thread later when i have come to my sense and feel guilty of tweeting this.