ive been thinking recently and i want know if people actually enjoy my streams because im in this constant state of dissatisfaction with myself and what i do. i just feel as if i have no motivation or any drive to do anything and im obligated to stream because i would be letting

you guys down if i stopped. it may just be me thinking too much and doubting myself, but im not sure what it is anymore. the reason why stopped playing overwatch is because not only i didnt enjoy it, but because i didnt think anyone enjoyed watching it aswell. this situation has

been affecting my real life aswell, i dont eat as much, i have no motivation to do any of my schoolwork, i dont talk to my family, i& #39;ve just been, for lack of better words, depressed. ive just been living in my head lately and its like a maze with no end.

i havent been open about this topic since an incident that happened more than half a year ago and its been eating me up inside. thank you to the friends that have been making the days easier. thank you for the support that you& #39;ve given me. and im sorry if ive been acting rude

to any of you because i just needed to an poor excuse to get my frustrations out. i may do it again, but just remember its not in spite of you. if any of you have a similar feeling (aka. dissatisfaction, unmotivated, etc.) im always here to talk despite my feelings right now <3