idk what it is but i feel so satisfied and in love with myself lately and its so nice to feel free from constant self evaluation and looking at my words from others perspective and feeling constantly reassured that its fine if someone doesn’t understand me bc i understand me, my-

best friend understands me, i dont need to care about anyone who doesnt get it. and ive been thinking how everything ive ever not liked about my physical form is so ridiculous because there cant be anything “wrong” with how i exist naturally. i have zero feelings of lonliness-

and am so content with myself its like magical. i feel so durable and so fucking free. ik its not going to last forever but ive never felt so indestructible. im like overflowing with love and im so happy knowing that my friends understand how much i love them and i keep looking-

at myself as an admirer and i dont have old cravings for control. i just want to hang out with myself all the time lol. i dont feel like i have to excuse myself or qualify. im rid of fear for my future. im unashamed of everything i am. yesterday i was thinking like “oh shit does-

this person think im dumb?” and then immediately i just thought like “who cares ... if they do then they’re wrong, doesnt affect me” and idk that hasnt always been easy for me so im really proud of myself. all the compassion i usually throw at my friend IM FINALLY GIVING MYSELF

ill delete this later once ive journaled it but hooooly fuck im on a cloud im tearing up w happy tears :)

wow i start sentences and then forget how i started them and they make no sense hkskss, i was listing things i felt free from and then just started listing things im happy about WITH NO TRANSITION, just saying the opposite of what i meant. if you get it, you get it whatever lol

also like an amazing extra bonus of this is that i just havent been accepting of poor treatment? like if someones being rude i dont have the urge to get them to treat me well or accept it. im able to just like them less and not give a shit :)