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I wrote a letter/poem for mama. Wala. Gusto ko lang syang paiyakin today.
https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😂" title="Face with tears of joy" aria-label="Emoji: Face with tears of joy"> But kidding aside, mama is a softie. Kahit lagi kami napapagalitan nun when we were young, like mga sutil talaga, deep inside her, I know, she& #39;s effin proud of us. I guess lahat naman ng nanay ganun.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤗" title="Hugging face" aria-label="Emoji: Hugging face">
Ayoko na sana & #39;tong dugtungan, kaso may nakita akong picture namin, pero & #39;di ko na i-po-posthttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😂" title="Face with tears of joy" aria-label="Emoji: Face with tears of joy">. As in old photo. Grade 2 yata ako nito. We& #39;re wearing an almost identical dress.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤣" title="Rolling on the floor laughing" aria-label="Emoji: Rolling on the floor laughing"> Uso sya talaga that time, yung terno kayo ng anak mo?https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😅" title="Smiling face with open mouth and cold sweat" aria-label="Emoji: Smiling face with open mouth and cold sweat"> Sinabitan nya ako ng medal sa photo na & #39;to.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥰" title="Smiling face with 3 hearts" aria-label="Emoji: Smiling face with 3 hearts">
Marami din pala kaming recognition photos ni mama. Ngayon ko lang nahalungkat & #39;tong mga & #39;to.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😁" title="Grinning face with smiling eyes" aria-label="Emoji: Grinning face with smiling eyes"> Personally, bilang first born nya, nung bata ako, ang goal ko talaga nun, maging top sa klase.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😂" title="Face with tears of joy" aria-label="Emoji: Face with tears of joy"> Kasi feeling ko nun, yun ang pinakamagandang regalo ko sa birthday nya.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥰" title="Smiling face with 3 hearts" aria-label="Emoji: Smiling face with 3 hearts">
Di ba kasi commencement exercises ay tuwing katapusan ng March or first week ng April. Tapos birth month nya ay April. Kaya favorite month ko talaga ay April, hindi dahil sa yun ang pinangalan nya sakin.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤭" title="Face with hand over mouth" aria-label="Emoji: Face with hand over mouth"> So pag top ako sa class nun, ang saya ng simula ng summer namin.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😂" title="Face with tears of joy" aria-label="Emoji: Face with tears of joy">
Pero never na-mressure yung mama ko. I mean, chill lang sya. Basta alam nyang nag-aaral kami, kahit hindi kami mag-top sa class, ok lang. Hindi sya gaya ng ibang nanay na kagagalitan yung anak pag wala sa honors& #39; list. Kaya happy ako na hinayaan nya kaming matuto on our own.
Mas malala pa mag-set ng expectations yung mga relatives namin nun.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😂" title="Face with tears of joy" aria-label="Emoji: Face with tears of joy"> May pag-kumparahang nagaganap tuwing may mga reunion. Kainis. Syempre bilang bata, maiisip mo din na galingan sa school, kasi ini-expect nila, magaling ka, matalino ka. Ang di nila alam, nakakasakal yung ganun.
Growing up, I wasn& #39;t working hard at school for mama, but for our relatives. Ewan ko ba. That time, ang hirap gumalaw sa mundong hindi mo naman ginustong maging parte. But looking back, those struggles helped me a lot, in so many ways. And I& #39;m grateful & thankful sa lahat.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥰" title="Smiling face with 3 hearts" aria-label="Emoji: Smiling face with 3 hearts">
So mabalik ako kay mamahttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😂" title="Face with tears of joy" aria-label="Emoji: Face with tears of joy">. Araw nya & #39;to e.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😅" title="Smiling face with open mouth and cold sweat" aria-label="Emoji: Smiling face with open mouth and cold sweat">
We had a fight about 9 years ago, before I moved here. Ayaw nya akong umalis. She wanted me to pursue teaching - take the LET, and then go back to school to teach. Obviously, may iba na akong plano that time. So we argued.
We had a fight about 9 years ago, before I moved here. Ayaw nya akong umalis. She wanted me to pursue teaching - take the LET, and then go back to school to teach. Obviously, may iba na akong plano that time. So we argued.
I wasn& #39;t proud of myself that time. Like she was crying her heart out, asking me to reconsider. It was heartbreaking, BUT, I had to stand my ground. My life was on the line, my future. So sabi ko, give me at least 2 years. And then I& #39;ll decide after that. Huminahon sya.
Long story short, hinayaan nya ako to move out, live on my own, miles away from her. You know why I was confident back then? Because of my dreams - for her, for our family and for myself. Everything that I now have was because of her. Because she trusted me, she believed in me.
Hanggang ngayon naman, whenever we have a chance to talk over the phone, sinasabi nya pa rin na mag-turo ako, na hinahanap daw ako ng Principal nung Alma Mater ng mga kapatid ko. And you know what, telling her "No, I& #39;m not going to do it." still breaks me into pieces.
Nasa gitna ako lagi ng pangarap nya para sa akin at pangarap ko para sa sarili ko. Minsan, gusto ko na lang mag-yes, para mapasaya ko sya. Pero pag tinanong ko sarili ko if I& #39;ll be happy about it? Alam ko yung sagot ay hindi. Mapapatanong na lang ako - "ang selfish ko ba?"https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤔" title="Thinking face" aria-label="Emoji: Thinking face">
Alam mo yun? Gusto kong mag-compromise, pero ang tanong ko lagi - "hanggang saan at kailan?" Ang hirap e. Kasi alam kong hindi ako sasaya sa hinihingi nila.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😊" title="Smiling face with smiling eyes" aria-label="Emoji: Smiling face with smiling eyes"> Anyways, mama and I are okay. We& #39;re in good terms. We may have our differences, but we always find our common ground.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😉" title="Winking face" aria-label="Emoji: Winking face">
Update: she texted me back https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😂" title="Face with tears of joy" aria-label="Emoji: Face with tears of joy"> I know she& #39;s a bit emotional right now.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😔" title="Pensive face" aria-label="Emoji: Pensive face">
I have brothers in the AFP and I& #39;m living on my own. I know it& #39;s difficult for her, especially these days. Sa amin din naman. But, this is our fate, so we always assure her that we& #39;re fine.
I have brothers in the AFP and I& #39;m living on my own. I know it& #39;s difficult for her, especially these days. Sa amin din naman. But, this is our fate, so we always assure her that we& #39;re fine.
