everyone and their third cousin on hq twt have talked ab the relatability of furudateā€™s character arcs and clearly, iā€™m no different, but thereā€™s just something ab this panel and its open space and lingering that speaks volumes to me, especially as an athlete
i swam year round since i was around 6 or 7 through hs, yet unlike udai tenma, i wasnā€™t a relatively remarkable athlete ā€” no major achievements, having struck a major plateau in grade 9/10 that just dragged on until a rough burnout by 12
to my knowledge, udai never experienced such a feeling. he was at the top of his game, hinataā€™s shining idol, yet he made the deliberate decision to take a step back & simply breathe, and there is such a resounding gravity to that decision
like tenma i never properly pursued swimming in college - now i swim more leisurely when i have time, but there is the underlying bittersweetness in knowing iā€™ll never be at the same level i was, that often tastes much more bitter than it does sweet
therefore, even if we donā€™t see his face, itā€™s udaiā€™s Look - that long lingering look back at the empty space of the court, a look that seems to evoke a feeling that just seems to consume him in that space, that memory of the past, that made me cry just a little harder
furudate has been expertly weaving these storylines like udaiā€™s which show that there are infinite avenues of life to be lived and wandered down outside of volleyball, outside of your respective sport & it is ultimately your choice whether to pursue it or not
however, it is because of all of that time, work, and effort - all of the sweat and tears from however many years youā€™ve dedicated to a sport - that you are the person you are today, that youā€™ve made it to where you stand now
in udaiā€™s look, he is witnessing the shadow of himself in the phantom, salon-pas-smelling court of memory, sifting through the echoes of the past. itā€™s a look of longing, but at the same time reconciliation.
you can never relive your glory days, but you can use them as a platform to make memories that last even longer and taste even sweeter.
even when you retire, that love for a sport will always be there. enough so that it will make you stop, even if just for a second longer, and remember. whether itā€™s sneaker squeaks or the smell of chlorine, the nostalgia of it all serves as an impetus to keep going, to the future
iā€™ve dragged on enough as is and this is more of a journal entry than anything, but there was just something ab this one panel that begged me to be articulated so if youā€™ve read this far and related in some way thank you, iā€™m glad i am not alone in living in the past šŸ¤
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