I can't quite put my current feelings in words. What's happening is i am once again being plagued by this uncaused sorrow that when i study is actually caused, yet isn't? I'm listening to Paramore's After Laughter. 26. My favorite song in the album.

The album is helping. A lot. It's one with my emotions. I'm sad. It's sad. It gives a sense of unity. The grief within and the grief without. There is no dissonance.

And yet, the melody isn't heavy. The emotions conveyed by the words, the tunes are heavy; and the melody provides a slight contrast.

There is unity. But the songs do not make me sink deeper and deeper into the pit my mind has created. It is a present friend.

I am stuck in a well--a dark and lonely well--but the music keeps me company. Comforting me, embracing me until help comes. Until i am able to gather myself and climb out.

It's a new experience. Not the usual endless sinking brought by companions digging a deeper hole hoping to go far enough to escape to the other side.

Does that make sense?

Ha? U drunk?