Thread by @emeraldlapin, It's 3 a.m aka emotional breakthrough o'clock and... oh god oh fcuk [...]

It& #39;s 3 a.m aka emotional breakthrough o& #39;clock and... oh god oh fcuk I have a crush. On someone in this here hellscape known as twitter dot com.
At least, I think it& #39;s a crush... hsfjkskdbh what do I do with the feelings :0

On the plus side, at least I& #39;m not obsessing over the identity of the mystery person who liked the "do u have a crush on me" poll... So that& #39;s a yay

Crush update: they r still awesome & v fun to talk to & I& #39;m def not being creepy by scrolling way down to see their older art & tweets. Nope. Idk what you& #39;re talking about. Lalala can& #39;t hear you over the sound of the wind whistling in my ears from how fast I& #39;m falling for them

Really though... Even if this doesn& #39;t go anywhere (which it v likely won& #39;t bc even if feeling r returned, longdist is hard & inter-country longdist is harder), I& #39;m so happy to have these feelings. It& #39;s just so reassuring to have this carefree crush, like a normal person ^^

& ppl like Sapphi & Rissu give me a little bit of hope, because they& #39;re long distance with like 10 hours of time difference & are still going strong after almost a year... that& #39;s v encouraging

Feeling:

If I ever make a nice neat pinned tweet with links and important info and whatnot this video is going right at the top

Have decided to tweet my google-voice gay video whenever I& #39;m feeling particularly home of sexual aka right now hhhhhHHH

It has been exactly 48 hours since the 1st crush tweet in this thread & I have too many feelings every time I talk with them & at the smallest interaction... hello yes I& #39;d like to report a serious case of "you got it bad" aaaaaaaaaaaa

Offline my procrastination is catching up on me and starting to make alarming speeding freight train noises in my brain... Feel like pure shiet just want to exist on the internet & water this seedling of a crush

Heh, the majority of the people I co aider my friends are here on this app, I suppose it makes sense I& #39;d develop a crush here too ^^
Aaanyway, final bit of lesbian screaming before I sleep

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*consider
I cannot type today, must be the lack of sleep or some junk like that ^^

They& #39;re incredible holy fcuk I& #39;m

Hello, I& #39;ve entered the maudlin creativity stage... I& #39;ll get out of a DM conversation or a scroll down their account, pick up my guitar, and then instantly remember that I CANNOT compose. At all. Only things i can play are generic looping pop chords & Hotel California :P

So yeah, serenading is out for the time being ^^;
Besides, apparently if anyone were to do the serenading it would be them... Did I mention they& #39;re amazing?

What& #39;s up, I& #39;m eM, I& #39;m 19 and I never learned to fcuking express my emotions in anything more elaborate than meme format :P

Can my fcuk ass brain shut up and stop playing Wilbur Soot& #39;s "I& #39;m in love with an e-girl" on loop... It& #39;s a bop, don& #39;t get me wrong, but the lyrics are uuuuh. not quite what I need right now. ;-;

The song does slap though. Plz Soot God lend me your songwriting strength

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Silence you hellspawn earworm https://youtu.be/YbYJKGWrG7U ">https://youtu.be/YbYJKGWrG...

Back at it again with a bad case of lesbrain syndrome hhhhhhhh
Talking w them just immediately makes my day better. The conversations aren& #39;t even deep & meaningful or whatev, it& #39;s just art, fandoms & memes... but it& #39;s great & I have a big silly smile on my face hours later ^^

Think it& #39;s definitely time for another

NO CONTEXT EMERALDLAPIN HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Ok so slight context they used a term of endearment offhandedly as a joke & I& #39;m big stupid so the gay brain immediately went into overdrive yeheeeeey

& not even like,, a serious term of endearment, just the kind of one you& #39;d toss out in a discord chat w friends, idk... So part of my brain is like "AAAAAAA ROMANTIC???" while another goes "nO IT& #39;S FRIENDSHIP" & tbh both are v v good & make me so happy ^^;

MAYDAY MAYDAY MORE TERMS OF ENDEARMENT I& #39;M AAAAAAAAAAA

Current mood is this
(also voice reveal, I suppose ^^)

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I& #39;m very upsetti at how loud I have to turn the vol up to hear anything, my phone mic is garbage ;-;

Also I would just like to clarify, the lyrics are "oh please say to me, you& #39;ll let me be your gal", because I& #39;m not sure if you know this, but I& #39;m in fact extremely gay

Hhhhhh it& #39;s 1:30 a.m & I am just vibing to nanobii music with the biggest goofiest smile on my face ^^

I now have an entire folder in my gallery that contains nothing bit screenshots of DMs & interactions that made my brain commit bluesceen of gayth

I am. In trouble. Hhhhhhhhh

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