Today I asked a simple question and everything escalated and people got extremely mad, calling me intrusive accusing me of hatred. I still can't process this. I am trying to learn& what do I get for it? A shit storm & people blaming me for their bad experiences

I got insulted, basically virtually screamed at, but of course now I am the one who has to feel guilty and who had to apologise.
I tried to learn and you unloaded you bad feelings onto me and punished me for trying to let you educate me.

I wanted to learn about your people and you got mad at me for trying to waste your time

And I had to apologise for existing and for trying to understand, while you could sit there insult me and talk about what a bad person I am

All I learned today is that you are not willing to answer questions and that it is rude of me to try to communicate and learn about other people's lives. I learned that whatever I do, it will insult you- it will insult all the people that are like you.

I try. I really do. But you expect me to go from 0 to 100, to know everything about you. As if I don't have a life myself to deal with, as if I don't have a ton of other things to do. You could have taken your time and kindly explained, but you wanted me to be the bad guy.

So fine. I am the bad guy. I'm a r*tard, or whatever you called me. I'm stupid, I don't know anything, I'm an ableist piece of trash. I never said that wasn't true. These things are exactly why I asked you, hoping that you'd make me less stupid and less of an ableist trashbag

Maybe I am the bad guy. I genuinely don't understand what I did wrong. But I apologised. I don't even know for what.
I am sick of having to hate myself online - whenever I step out of my selfhate I am rude or aggressive.
Is there nothing you did wrong?

I'm sure if we'd want to, we could be friends. We could find things we relate to. But no, you have to hate me for trying to understand you. And I won't like you now either because you showed me that trying to learn is a bad thing.

What would you say if you read this thread? You'd think I try to hurt you, you'd think I try to call you out and spread hate. But honestly, I'm just a stupid child crying about not being understood.
But how can I sound honest and sincere? Genuine and not aggressive? I don't know

This is sad, you know? Because I believe I could have learned a lot from you. But the experience I had today will stay in my head. Next time I want to ask I will remember what happened today and how much trouble I caused and not ask.

And maybe.. Your people don't want me to understand you? Your people maybe don't want to answer my questions?
And that's fine. But if you don't want to answer, why can't you just ignore me? Why do you have to get so mad at me?