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Today I asked a simple question and everything escalated and people got extremely mad, calling me intrusive accusing me of hatred. I still can& #39;t process this. I am trying to learn& what do I get for it? A shit storm & people blaming me for their bad experiences
I got insulted, basically virtually screamed at, but of course now I am the one who has to feel guilty and who had to apologise.
I tried to learn and you unloaded you bad feelings onto me and punished me for trying to let you educate me.
I tried to learn and you unloaded you bad feelings onto me and punished me for trying to let you educate me.
I wanted to learn about your people and you got mad at me for trying to waste your time
And I had to apologise for existing and for trying to understand, while you could sit there insult me and talk about what a bad person I am
All I learned today is that you are not willing to answer questions and that it is rude of me to try to communicate and learn about other people& #39;s lives. I learned that whatever I do, it will insult you- it will insult all the people that are like you.
I try. I really do. But you expect me to go from 0 to 100, to know everything about you. As if I don& #39;t have a life myself to deal with, as if I don& #39;t have a ton of other things to do. You could have taken your time and kindly explained, but you wanted me to be the bad guy.
So fine. I am the bad guy. I& #39;m a r*tard, or whatever you called me. I& #39;m stupid, I don& #39;t know anything, I& #39;m an ableist piece of trash. I never said that wasn& #39;t true. These things are exactly why I asked you, hoping that you& #39;d make me less stupid and less of an ableist trashbag
Maybe I am the bad guy. I genuinely don& #39;t understand what I did wrong. But I apologised. I don& #39;t even know for what.
I am sick of having to hate myself online - whenever I step out of my selfhate I am rude or aggressive.
Is there nothing you did wrong?
I am sick of having to hate myself online - whenever I step out of my selfhate I am rude or aggressive.
Is there nothing you did wrong?
I& #39;m sure if we& #39;d want to, we could be friends. We could find things we relate to. But no, you have to hate me for trying to understand you. And I won& #39;t like you now either because you showed me that trying to learn is a bad thing.
What would you say if you read this thread? You& #39;d think I try to hurt you, you& #39;d think I try to call you out and spread hate. But honestly, I& #39;m just a stupid child crying about not being understood.
But how can I sound honest and sincere? Genuine and not aggressive? I don& #39;t know
But how can I sound honest and sincere? Genuine and not aggressive? I don& #39;t know
This is sad, you know? Because I believe I could have learned a lot from you. But the experience I had today will stay in my head. Next time I want to ask I will remember what happened today and how much trouble I caused and not ask.
