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i am feeling so bad rn, as a one it
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i never watched h&d music video's, i am always getting scared that it will hurt me again, i can't even stan cravity, because i feel ashamed for myself, being an ia then suddenly coming back whenever i wanted to-
i want to move forward, like you guys used to, i really tried to downplayed this longing for them, but whenever i wanted to think about it i always ask myself: why did it happen, questions always starts at why??? They'd throw this boys dream because of what??-
You never gave us enough reason, to why would we go and let go. I wanted to. I wanted to continue being a fan, without no doubts. But why are the worst things do happen??-
I am a fan of seungwoo, seungyoun, wooseok, yohan, hangyul, junho, minhee, eunsang, dongpyo, hyeongjun and dohyon- but ever since it happen i can't even take a look at my tl, it is making me sad; this is not the sadness that eats you up. This is the sadness that is always hidden-
since that day, i never bawled my eyes. And it was so sick for me, like how can i not :***( i am a fan of them since the pdx. I can even remember how my bias top 5 changed because of hangyul not getting scared by a mf ghost- helppp
and f*********k it sucks. Of course sometimes i open this acc, to know, what is happening, etc. But whenever i scroll my tl for just 5 minutes, there is a lot of twts that is very unhelpful for me to move forward (i am not throwing hate fc)-
i'll stop, this thread- i just want to share this messy thoughts going through my head this past few days. And also i will watch h&d mvs from now on (not only them)
And lastly, i know this is so like herding cats but nothing will changed my mind, i want my @x1official101 @x1members reboot. I love you all.
