You ever have a violent realization as to why you've been struggling mental health wise and suddenly lots of shit makes sense. Doesn't cure it, but helps

My mental health always tanks hard core around the anniversaries of my parents deaths. So, christmas eve and late april. It's kinda a conscious thing, but mostly subconscious. My mom passed away the day before the trailer for hazbin released...

She was bed ridden so I worked on it next to her and she was always really interested and impressed with my progress. She kept telling me how proud she was.... I'd give anything to show her all that I've done since, but it was nice in those final days to have that.