Thread by @Slunchice1, This thread was just as difficult to post like the tweet earlier, [...]

This thread was just as difficult to post like the tweet earlier, but everything happens for a reason.

Imagine if I had allowed you guys to break me down everytime I see or hear a comment about mad or crazy? Or in today's case, she deh pon sumn?

Imagine teaching yourself to write, speak and refresh your vocabulary like a child again? Unable to explain to strangers around you why yuh so daft, at least for a while?

Imagine trying to explain to people that at one point others just look at you and start run because apparently they cuda see "demons" on you and even tho some ppl were prayer warriors everybody stand away looking at you in despair and church empty out?

Imagine getting a mental breakdown, getting admitted, told to drink DPH if I cant sleep/if anything, thinking everything alright and crosses deh pon yuh same way?

Imagine not believing in deliverance and pastor make you puke out hell pon command? Yuh friends say u voice and complexion change? Opportunities start come back in, like likkle luck pon yuh side again?

Imagine crying when ppl laugh at one of your jokes for the first time in years because there was "sumn bout yuh voice weh used to just tick/turn ppl off no matter weh say"?

Imagine people saying they hearing rumours say you say this bout dem and all you do is keep to yourself? Then you hear a "demon" responding to a pastor during deliverance and finding out that a "demons spread runours the most"? We are vessels.

Imagine getting "delivered" then trying to settle down in life after all this bad luck but you cya explain to people all that you have been thru without sounding crazy?

Science/medicine vs spirituality and religion?

Imagine trying to date?

Imagine being so fearful of the things you know people are saying behind your back, it causes you to dim your light and not put yourself out there that much cuz you dont want people to use this against u, bring u down a notch, block opportunities? U do enuf to secure yuh food.

Imagine people from all walks of life having sumn to say about you and 90% of them have never even met you?

How do you explain to people that you are the same person even tho "sumn bout you different, change" is the free I'm free of what ever was plaguing me?

We are all Jamaicans and while many of us arent sure if certain things are true or exist or not many of us have"seen and heard things" that others have been a witness to.

Yes I have a few peculiarities and idiosyncracies about me, but that's not the sum total of me.

I really hope that I don't regret sending this thread but I wanted to share how I feel inspite of ppl always saying not to care what others think.

Imagine being afraid to share this part of you because you don't want people to further alienate you?

Imagine people never giving you a chance from you were a child, because of something that was beyond your control and weren't even aware of?

This is the reality I know and the only truth I can speak to. Please dont make this journey anymore difficult for me.

I might not have divulge every single detail but I am just grateful to be alive to express this cuz at one point I wasnt so sure I would have been able to.

I put this behind me years ago and gosh I just want the next 30 years and beyond to be easier. I still worry cuz it slowed down my life alot, ruined alot of things but I am better these days.

N I am not a mean person, just too open and honest sometimes. Misunderstood maybe?

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