April 25, 2008

It’s been 12 years to the day since my siblings & I had our mom & dad physically here with us. Never have I ever imagined living a life without them so early on. They had so much time left with us, but of course sometimes life doesn’t always work out that way.
If you knew my mom & dad you’d know that they were such awesome people. Literally THE BEST! My dad was always “Mr.Aloha
” always had a smile on his face, cracking jokes, & just an all around cool guy to be around. His energy was off the charts


My mom was the most selfless & caring person. The epitome of what it truly is to be a mother & a wife. I never imagined becoming a mother without mine by my side but I always hope to become my own version of her
Now that I’m older I realize that my mother really did know best.

The one thing I regret was assuming that my parents would be with us forever, grow old together. That we’d have all the time in the world to spend together. I took advantage of that. We didn’t even get the chance to say “see you later,” that part kills me when I think about it.
I came to peace with it a long time ago but my heart will always feel a little heavier around this time & my mind will always find a way to think about what life would have been like if that one thing didn’t happen. My heart will always have a spot for that.
If you’re fortunate to have both parents present please don’t take advantage of that. Always tell them you love them & spend time with them when you can. A little hard to do with everything going on now, but always make sure they know that they are loved & thought about

On a more serious note my mom was a victim of domestic violence & my dad took his own life after taking hers. Be aware of signs & signals, & always make sure the people around you are okay. A lot can go on in a persons mind without other people knowing.
I wish my teenage self checked up on my parents as much as they checked up on me. I always assumed everything was okay
now that I’m older it just goes to show that everyone is going through something no matter how happy they may seem on the outside. Check on your loved ones!

On a happier note, I know my parents would be so proud of the people their babies grew up to be. They would’ve been THE BEST grandparents to their grand babies & that makes my heart feel so warm when I think about it

With this experience all I can say is, tomorrow is never promised so be kind, love eachother, check on your loved ones, live your life fully & positively, & if you find yourself in a dark place never think you have to go through hardships alone.