I think I’m very stressed out. I’m extremely tired and dealing with so much. I thought about going to Tokyo for a week or two. I need a change of scenery. I want to see Hiro. Tokyo was home for a long time. I just need to decompress. But, I don’t think my schedule will permit.

If I can manage it, I’ll go to Tokyo this week. But, if not, I’ll remain in Seoul. I really don’t think my schedule will let me. But I’d give damn near anything to see Hiro again. To see Tokyo again.

I wish my fearlessness didn’t coax me to constantly involve myself in highly volatile situations I am not afraid of anything. I just want to experience life to the fullest. Every step I have taken has lead me to my dream life. It isn’t without struggle, but I take it in stride.

I have pushed myself to the limit. I rarely sleep anymore. Sometimes I don’t even know what day it is. Seoul is a mood. I don’t have a conventional job like everyone else. My career is unique. My hobbies are not for the faint of heart. My relationships are very high resolution.

I used to fear everything. People, what they say about me, opinions, etc. But I couldn’t care less these days. I live only for myself and to make others happy. I am not truly close to anyone anymore. I’m a lone wolf. An enigma. I’m just there. My trust is something I rarely give.

I’ll delete this thread as always I’m just venting.

Sometimes I need to get it out. I’m just like everyone else.