can't believe my tweets a few years ago were depressing af. i quit my fangirling life from 2015-2018 and all i did was crying over a boy i liked in college LMAO I CAN'T STOP CRINGING AT MY SELF and bro don't even get me started abt the songs in my playlist that time

i literally listened to mostly ballad songs with depressing lyrics that i could really relate those lyrics to my life LMAOOOO CRINGEEE!!!

and my life everyday were pretty much dull like i really had nothing much to look forward to. all i did everyday was going to campus for classes, cry over that boy, go home, cry again, do assignments, cry again, text him, cry again cuz he replied me w short texts. WTF DAYLE

and i literally starved myself just to be that pretty girl for him i would skip meals everytime and what's worse was that i couldn't have enough sleep cuz most of the time i was crying every single night for that guy AHHH CRINGEE!!!!!!

and during that 3 yrs i really stopped listening to kpop just because the guy i liked didn't really listen to kpop much i wanted to keep up w his playlist so i started listening to what he was listening on a daily basis. so my playlist would be a set of his songs plus my

depressing songs mixed tgt I REALLY HAD NO LIFE BACK THEN LMAO SOMETIMES I WONDER HOW DID I EVEN SURVIVE LIFE BACK THEN WITHOUT FANGIRLING i really sacrificed my love for kpop just so i could impress a guy. PATHETIC MUCH DAYLE

if not mistaken i think it was around early 2018 when i discovered ikon's love scenario and bobby's runaway, i fell in love with those songs and started listening to ikon. i was crazy in love with them omg i would literally watch all their vids and post ig stories abt them every

single day. my ikon bias is bobby btw hehehe. and yeahh i guess ikon brought back my fangirling life and also i then discovered abt mobb and started to like mino HEHEHEHE and you know what happens next. i started to like winner!!! HEHEHEHE

and yessss till today mino is still my winner bias. i'm thankful for both ikon and winner for pulling me out of the depression hole and bringing me back to my fangirling life. my love for kpop helped me move on from my shitty feelings that i've wasted on that guy for 3yrs plus

and abt nct, i didn't stan them at first cuz i thought i couldn't keep up with a kpop group more than 12 members (i've been stanning shinee and exo during my high school life) but superm changed my life!!! when i saw kaibaek and taem were to be in a group

i was like OMG YAS GURLLLL but i had no idea who the other 4 members were. so i started stanning superm because of my love for shinee and exo. and then i started opening up to recognizing the other members. the first person who caught my attention among the 4 were lucas

cuz he damn cute xia like wtfff. i remembered telling my colleague that i was crazy over lucas so she recommended running man to me. i binged watched that show because of lucas and then after that i started liking taeyong because of that vid. i don't have that vid w me but

i think it was abt his vlive talking smth abt "it's okay if you're bad at it, it's okay if people criticize you cuz that's you." i really gained positivity from his words and decided to stan him HEHEHEHE. and then he led me to liking ten bcuz of baby don't stop

what really caught my attention w ten was his smile and the way he speaks. also i love his sassy personality that time (now i know there's more to it). i've came to like ten because of his kind, sweet, caring and loving personality. and also his talent in everything

and mark i just recently fell in love harder for him cuz he's such a sweetheart. the 4 of them led me to loving both nct and wayv and i'm super grateful for that. you guys probably know already. i'm a SUPER NEW nctzen and weishennie and i know i have soooo much more things to

keep up with. i've made so many new friends and known so many nice mutuals on twt and i'm super grateful for you guys to always keeping me updated abt nct and wayv!!