Everything has to stop when it’s to the point that you’re making me feel less than and constantly talking At me when I’ve asked you not to. Even w/ all my faults I don’t deserve that. The moment I let someone convince me otherwise is when I lose myself and esteem tht I’ve built.

I’m sorry but that’s just never going to work. It’s developed into prohibited emotion for me and of all that I am trying to work on within myself I cannot add on the worry of failure to living up to someone’s ideal. To add this would b utterly unwise and unfair for all parties.

After researching, I definitely think a term to describe my character issue here is: a defensive self-ideal. (I’ll explain what prohibited emotion means from @PsychToday in this thread too)