family: why do you never let us join in with or tell us about your interests, it& #39;s not nice!!

me, reluctantly: tada, here is an interest

family: *rips the piss out of my and the interest and will keep bringing it up for months/years*

me: this...this is why....

my family have always like.....idk picked on me (?? that feels too mean to say but something like that) for enjoying things, whether it& #39;s openly or private and it& #39;s kinda exhausting and miserable tbh..

i& #39;ve always kept any interests i have as hidden as possible bc of

(cont.)

the way they ALWAYS act whenever i show the slightest interest in anything and before i learned how to hide things from them properly i ended up stop doing a lot of things i enjoyed bc i just couldn& #39;t handle their criticism all time.

family please....

it is already SO FUCKING DIFFICULT to find things that hold my interest and that i enjoy so PLEASE stop constantly being nasty about anything i like...

with being stuck with them a lot more than normal they& #39;re getting noisier than usual (which is saying something) and i& #39;m getting stuck in those feelings of shame and embarrassment again for just doing things that pass the time in a way that doesn& #39;t bore me to death and i& #39;m tired.

SORRY TO RANT I DIDN& #39;T INTEND THIS TO END UP THAT WAY DJKXDDOJD