u know what?? fuck it. you never even considered how i feel. you’re hurting rn okay i get it and u should know i was here for u like u just have to tell me and i would try my fucking best to make u feel better

yall know me as a friend who’s literally one call away. LITERALLY. idec if we barely talk or whatever but tell me if something’s wrong and i would fucking fix it. i’d fix you!!! YOU KNEW I AM T H A T FRIEND

but even those kinds of friends need time for themselves too cause our life won’t just go on cause of u. all i was asking for everybody was a little understanding because i’m going through something i don’t even know what

i cannot keep up with everything in your life because this fucking lockdown just gave me an opportunity to finally put myself first but clearly u didn’t even get it. i cannot just continue fixing other people’s issues when i myself is somehow a crap too

i am fucking empty these past few weeks or even months and i fucking swear that’s the worst. i even forgot the difference of happiness and loneliness already because i am so numb and this is honestly fucking the hell out of me

i didn’t need help cause if there’s one thing i’m sure, it’s that all i needed for a while is myself. and i just wanted yall to understand. i’ll still be willing to hear ur stories and u should know that.

u should know that i’d be here if you need me to comfort you but you have to tell me because that would somehow give me comfort too for it distracts my mind for thinking too much about my life. i love hearing what u r up to

but what i don’t need is for u to go straight up to me saying things like i wasn’t there when you needed me cause we both know i have been there every fucking ups and downs in ur life. and it’s not like you’ve been a burden bc u are fucking important to me

i didn’t ask for too much, didn’t i? i don’t even ask you to be there for me always as well. all i was just asking is for you to understand me rn but what you did was choose to not even consider me and just be with ur ego.

this thread helped me so bad cause i can’t contain these to myself. i’m sorry this won’t happen again just unfollow me if u find this disturbing or annoying pls i just needed to vent out. i cant really determine if i’m hurt rn or what cause i feel so numb aha aha