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Okay so here is a question I am hoping someone can answer. I have had anxiety dreams for quite a few years now I want to say at least 4. During that time including today I woke up and was confused it’s like half of my brain thought I was in a tv show and had to +
Solve a problem (I sleep with a blanky so keep that in mind) today’s I woke up thinking my blanky was concrète and had cracks but it was a crime scene so I needed to put the cracks back together and find the missing pieces. But then the other half of my brain was like +
This is not real, you need to calm down, figure out where you are and what you’re doing. See I thought this may be confusional arousals BUT it’s like I know it’s happening. It’s an anxiety dream just carried on. When I have an anxiety dream if I wake up that’s all I can +
See or hear like I’m in this other world and it takes me a few minutes or hours to realize it’s not real. So this is like that accept right from waking up I know it’s not real however that’s still all I see, feel, hear, smell. +
I had one last week like Thursday and I woke up and I was being told by someone to tip paper and glue it to my blanky and I was crying cause I didn’t want to. And again right from waking up I knew it wasn’t real but I keep thinking it, seeing it, and feeling it ALL OF THE SENSES
So THWRE are some of the ones where I’m half aware half not now I’m gonna move onto ones where I am completely not aware that I am sierra in my bed sleeping. The first anxiety dream I remember having was the day after I quit ballet so I can join musical theatre +
And in the dream I was in the dance studio and my teach was making me sew the ribbions onto tons of point shoes. *here is what I see* all around me I see the studio as if I’m in it, I see a huge pile of toe shoes with no ribbions and my teacher yelling at me. +
All of the doors were shut and I couldn’t get out. Everytime I sewed a shoe I had to throw it at the wall and it would turn to dust. I was cry hysterically but I wasn’t alone... I look to my right and my cousin who used to go to the same studio was doing the same as me.
Then my mom found me and made me aware of where I am but I couldn’t go back to sleep cause all I see when I close my eyes was that. Okay another one. I was in a ballroom like in beauty and the beast. Okay so I was getting ready for the ball making my dress out of scotch tape +
I was getting frustrated cause the one piece WOULD NOT STICK so I started crying. Again all I can see was the ball room. A big stair case leading to the dress and when I arrived I couldn’t finish it in time. Now I only remember this because I was partially awake but still unaware
Okay so another part of this is. The ones I spoke about how I’m half aware but stick stuck. Those mainly include my blanky, why?? Does it give me stress? I’m constantly ruining it and i always cry cause I don’t want to. +
Another type of dream like this which is rare for me ive only had it happen 3 times in 4 years. I would wake up and I was completely in a different room in my house. It feel incredibly real. In my kitchen, when I look in the mirror it’s not distorted it’s normal +
I can touch all of the items and walk around the room. I never remember anything after it such as how I became aware of where I truly am. Another time I was in my garage. Another I was in my backyard and when I looked up I can see the stars and see my house in the distance +
Another part of every single one of these (except the waking up in different rooms, idk how I got out of that) ends with a major panic attack. I remember this one where my mom was waking me up and I was unaware it’s like I was not in control but I threw pillows all over +
I was screaming bloody murder, pushing against the wall (claustrophobia) and bending in weird ways.
I guess my whole point of this thread and my true question is... are these confusional arousals? Are they visions or delusions? How can I make them stop? These are something that constantly happens to me and is one major source of my panic attacks. And it happens too often
Thank you for coming to my thread I hope someone can help because I can’t see any doctors currently and I am thinking that maybe I should try therapy or a psychiatrist? Someone who can tell me what’s happening and how to control it
