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i’m really just too much for people to handle ig :(
like i don’t feel anything anymore but i when i do feel something it’s always when i’m really sad or lonely
i just wish i could mean something to someone
i’ve never had really close friends. it’s probably bc i’m too clingy and annoying. which i didn’t know was a bad thing until every person i had a relationship with told me that it was
like i’ve managed to let every good thing slide through my fingers
like EVERY group i’ve been in or friend i’ve had all stop talking to me eventually.
but if i tell people how i feel i’m being a “baby” and i need to “stop doing that” ...stop what? being myself.....i hate to believe that imma problem but i cant help to feel like i am
i want somebody to look forward to talking to me. i wanna be a light in somebody’s life. all i end up doing is leaving the place worse than how i found it
i honestly don’t know what to do. i’m totally irrelevant on twitter anymore so even though i’m making this thread i doubt anyone would even care. a lot of the friends i’ve met on twitter tell me everything i’m doing wrong...just making it all worse for me
i cant express myself anymore. i’m invisible irl and online. i’m being a baby. i need to stop doing this. what goes on inside my head is insane. i’m what people don’t want.
like i said i don’t feel anything anymore. i’ve been numb for years. the only time i feel something is when it’s something very chaotic. i’m a chaotic person. nobody wants that.
i’m a shell of someone i used to know well. i’ve lost them. & i feel that they’ll never come back
