I hate how I ping-pong back and forth between being needy towards girls or being distant and rejecting them.

Hate that suppressing these feelings or pretending not to have them is somehow the only way to not drive them away.

Hate that there’s a huge hole in me that makes me do the things that prevent it from getting filled.

Hate that every time I talk to girls it’s like the bandaid is getting ripped off again and again.

Hate that having shitty parents dooms me to a life of cyclical emotional suffering.

Like WTF who came up with this?! I want off Mr. God’s wild ride.

Yeah I could tweet these things on an anonymous alt but this is really like my last resort LOl someone helpe me

Thank you everyone who gave nice comments on this thread or reached out in DMs.