tw//suicide

this time of the year is very hard for me. a year ago around this time i felt like nothing was right and there was no point in living. i almost jumped off of a bridge, the only reason i didnt was because i knew i wouldnt have died from the fall... (cont.)

i walked home in the middle of the night after that, hoping and praying someone would just hit me with their car or kidnap me and kill me. anything to just end for me. so many people walked by as i stood on the edge of that bridge (hysterically crying) and did nothing... (cont)

since that day so many amazing things have happened to me that i am so glad to have lived through and that i will never forget. i havent had any attempts (or almost attempts) since then. today i opened up to someone for the first time, and now im opening up to you all.

i still have bad thoughts especially around this time of year. im doing the best i can to hold on and i hope you are doing the same even in these hard times. you are all loved & cared for and i know i am too. check up on those you care about, make sure they know they arent alone

just take care of yourselves and reach out when things get overwhelming