saying this openly is really sad but sometimes i wish i wasn’t black?? or at least that i was a prettier black girl?

this probably makes 0 sense but basically the types of guys that i’m usually attracted to would never go for someone like me because of the color of my skin or how i look and it’s makes me so sad..

i’m not saying that i think i’m ugly because of what boys think, it’s just that most of the time they wouldn’t look at me and go for me over a white girl or someone with lighter skin :( so many black girls struggle with their identity due to society’s colorism and it sucks.

if i liked boys of my own race maybe it wouldn’t be so difficult finding someone that appreciates me for me but i cant help it. not to mention that i’ve been teased so many times for being attracted to people outside of my race, why does it matter? it shouldn’t matter :(