I can honestly say I never had a REAL measure of unconditional deep love until I had my children, especially my daughter.

Like as you get older you just take all the BS you picked up in your teens then try rectify it and figure life out, never knowing what most of it means.

For instance, when Siyana is sleeping at night and she has a bad dream she'll call for me in her sleep just for me to comfort her and put her back to sleep.

I don't know how you describe that emotion but it's the most warmest, most pure attachment I've had to someone.

When I here people say things as a blanket statement like 'I'm doing this for my kids' often it's an excuse they give themselves to pursue their own endeavours. But all your kids ACTUALLY want is you. They don't know anything else. They don't even know what they're born into.

So we mustn't plague their minds with the same insecurities, bias, fears and distorted reality that we've inherited.

We should just comfort them, be there when they call for us and let them wonder off into their own worlds knowing if they need us, we're here to protect them.

Being a good father is the only accolade I'd want to be recognised by, and even that by my children only.