this is going to sound dumb but i didn’t realize until i got medicated just how miserable my anxiety was making me. like outside of taking the worry away i’m just...happy? & motivated? it feels so much easier to love & be loved & i feel hopeful? is this just how some people FEEL?

also my confidence has shoot through the roof? so many things i thought were a part of my personality were actually just a fault of my brain being an exhausted worry machine with no serotonin this is just. wild

the wildest thing is i was going to go my whole life unmedicated. i thought my anxiety was helpful & not that bad. and then a birth control made me so depressed i couldn’t get out of bed and my obgyn basically strong armed me into seeing a psychiatrist and here are.

i could cry

anyways—meds aren’t for everyone. but they are certainly for me. i love one bitch and her name is lexapro