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bbback to studying kierkegaard like i was last year. only now life is so different from then. i dunno. i dont feel motivated or interested in sharing this topic on twitter & #39;cause nobody really cares lol
Meeting someone last year that genuinely cared to have me go on huge tangents about philosophy/religion/my own life experiences and spending the time i did with her matured me a lot and helped me grow a deeper interest in this stuff
I fell out of it since February, our friendship souring from then to a few weeks ago took me out of both my philosophy studies and most stuff i was into before. And. Now i have 5 months worth of 3d work i cant do anything with too.
This whole falling out destroyed me but also made me a better person as a result. I just wish her side didnt turn out as it did and ill forever have guilt weighing on me for how she& #39;s most likely going to handle life now.
Ive been tweeting vaguely about this off and on since march and i hate over sharing publicly or being potentially socially autistic but i cant help it lolol
The whole situation completely changed my life both for the better and worst, i wish it didnt turn out for the worst for her and ill never let it go but i think this needed to happen to mature me spiritually and convict me to what i need to be focused on in my life
Having 3d work posted here then deleted, religious stuff vaguely off and on mixed with autistic shitposts and then the friend fallingout making me go emo makes my twitter look so psychotic. I hope the shift in focus in my life will fix that and get me on track anew.
I wanna be more openly Christian and keep my mind less susceptible to distraction. Its harsh conflicting with christians my age that still cling to clearly sinful stuff like NSFW art because distancing myself makes me feel so alone
I forgot where i was going with this thread lmaao fuck
Ill end it with anyone mutual or not or whatever wanting to dm and talk about those topics is welcome to, and anyone looking to get into it too. Id really like to focus less on media and memes and shit going forward
Ill end it with anyone mutual or not or whatever wanting to dm and talk about those topics is welcome to, and anyone looking to get into it too. Id really like to focus less on media and memes and shit going forward
I learned from that falling out how much an addiction *any* kind of porn can be 2d or 3d regardless of use, how easily comfortable we grow with the various media we expose ourselves to every day like normal, how other people can easily be bad influences if you hang around them
Dunno. It sucks learning all this at my age cause its extremely difficult to find young people that are genuinely doing their best to follow christ and take growing as individuals more seriously as opposed to being content with their worldly "comfort"
yeah that falling out killed me inside and made my mind go all over the place. Id take a break from twitter or social media but that friend is literally everywhere, its not been easy to get my mind off her and off everything no matter how much ive prayed
