Self-Insecurity Thread about me and the thoughts i had in the last few days incoming. I just feel like putting this out here to feel better i guess. Read the thread if you want to. I dont really care. [1/10]

So in the last couple of days I had a lot of time to think for myself. In this time I remembered a lot of stuff which happened to me in the past and i either absolutely regret or absolutely tear me down. The 2nd type of these situations, i wont talk about. [2/10]

But in the first type of situations i just have to think of myself, and how i acted in them. When thinking back, i hate literally about my past self. My decisions were stupid, i acted like a 4 year old and regret pretty much everything i did in the past in general [3/10]

But this is just stuff which has "increased" my current feeling. What was actually bothering me was stuff that i thought recently. My recent thoughts in general was this: "Im not good at anything" or "I dont have a future". [4/10]

Before i had all these thoughts, there was stuff i thought i was good at, even though it wasnt much. These were drawing, maybe tennis, maybe piano and even shit like esports. But now when i think back, i wasnt good at any of those. I was mediocre at best. [5/10]

When i think about tennis, i was always the worst in my group and never really advanced. For my piano "skills" it took me 4 months to learn a single song and after 7 years of practicing it i stopped it. Now i come back to it sometimes, trying, but still failing. [6/10]

Regarding to esports i tended to say im a good player while playing against lvl 8 or lvl 9 bots in super smash bros. i won sometimes but when i played against actual players? I lost 70% of the time. So this is as well something im not good at. [7/10]

Now the only thing left is drawing. I always thought i was kind of good and even wanted it to be my future job. But in the past few days i realized that most of my pictures look really bad. And when it actually looks ok? Its copied. I copied 90% of my pictures. [8/10]

And even at copying, i wasnt good. There are probably only like 3 out of maybe 50 pictures ive made that i still like to this day. So this is obviously not a good career choice for me. And now? Theres pretty much nothing left for me, i have no idea what i can do later on. [9/10]

I dont think there is anything left. I dont know what to do at this point. My only hope is to find something which is fun to me and can also be a career choice. I would like to thank everyone who took the time to read this thread. I am going to watch naruto for a while now[10/10]