i have a lot of things to be sad and angry about, it seems whenever i finally feel at home something happens and takes me out of place time and time again. ive given myself time to heal and i finally feel like i'm going to be ok, that i am not going to hurt or feel hurt, i think

that the pain ive felt and the overwhelming anxiety ive felt has at least quelled to the point that i feel comfortable in my own skin, i'm not sure if i'm happy or at a state of indifference, but i'm at a calm state now, and i'm comfortable with that

not sure what i was going for in this thread, i guess i'm just glad i'm ok after feeling so awful for such a long time

idk, this is probably just tired rambling, im going to sleep