My old boy, Biscuit started yowling at 3-4am in the morning and I found out he could be senile. He& #39;s 17, the vet said to me by Monday I may have to "make the difficult decision!" I just can& #39;t even describe how I feel right now....

He& #39;s been a part of my life for 17 years and I genuinely am heartbroken at the thought of making that decision. Oh my actual god, I can& #39;t do it. Literally, the reason I hit the drink tonight is because I can& #39;t face it. I just can& #39;t. https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Loudly crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Loudly crying face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Loudly crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Loudly crying face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Loudly crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Loudly crying face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Loudly crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Loudly crying face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Loudly crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Loudly crying face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Loudly crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Loudly crying face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Loudly crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Loudly crying face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Loudly crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Loudly crying face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Loudly crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Loudly crying face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Loudly crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Loudly crying face">

FYI I& #39;m not gonna "Make that difficult decision" by Monday and if I could meet that fucking vet I would probably go full on crazy on him but I haven& #39;t got words to describe what this shit feels like. They won& #39;t even see him FFS!!!!!!!!!!!