Today was the longest I& #39;ve been outside of my apartment in over 2 months. I also saw & interacted with over a dozen people, which - while I had PPE - really just fried my nerves.

My tremors are in full force, my brain is mush, I just feel so spent. Need to relax tonight somehow.

I& #39;ve seen billboards, t-shirts, heard radio DJs call us in healthcare heroes. Every time I hear that word I feel a little more crushed.

I didn& #39;t take this job to be a "hero" on the "frontline." I wanted folks to have homes. I try not to dwell, but it& #39;s hard when it& #39;s repeated.

I& #39;m really trying to minimize how much I complain. There& #39;s folks who have it harder, & I know people don& #39;t like it when I do talk about this stuff. I just don& #39;t have many outlets.

And Twitter just is this hot mess right now that I feel almost unattached from with all the drama.

I wish we all weren& #39;t hurting & on edge. I feel how tense everyone is. And I don& #39;t have many ways to help with that.

This thread is nearly pointless. Sorry for ramble. Maybe I& #39;ll just make an alt so I don& #39;t annoy people on main with my depression idk.

I& #39;m just so very spent.