i've done this. it's likely because when something actually goes bad to where i can actually register it as *my* definition of "bad", it's likely that i am being traumatized. so i dissociate.

i wouldn't say toxic (for me) but instead a trauma response. https://twitter.com/taisoleil/status/1224444305130975233

i've gotten better over the years by being able to register when something is actually happening. the default state for me is dissociated and i work to be in my body so i can see what's going on including the bad stuff. it's very unconscious

but it's easy to feel triggered and immediately "leave" and almost turn myself off like a switch. remembering that libra is aligned with the number 6 and 6 is the heart. the "dark" side of libra is complete apathy and detachment from the heart (soul). that always stem pain.

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