i feel so bored and also boring idk how to explain
but i feel like my sims sope miss me and i should go there
when will my will to live return im tired

im literally sitting in front of my computer and looking at youtube home page for 30 minutes not doing anything
and my brother snores in the background
that wasn't important at all but here we go i guess

should i call my mom to talk about shit
she is still not asleep probably

or should i go and reread crime and ounishment for the 234676523965429837487 time to feel depressed at least???
or finally read brothers Karamazov because i always forget that i want to read them?

unproductive? boring? bored? doing everything on autopilot? eating mostly plain rice for a week and a half? distancing from talking to people again except for sending tiktoks for more then two weeks now?
yeah thats my routine
im fucked

when i was younger i would google "what to do when you're bored" when i was feeling like that
never helped tho, 0/10, won't recommend

should i start reading that chinese gay thing?
or not?
can this bring me back to life?
or maybe i should watch itaewon class again to be angry at Yi-seo? this will be at least some kind of emotion

im writing this thread for 30 minutes already and im still bored af and still boring af why im even doing this

should i reflect on my life maybe?(no)