Alright so, there& #39;s almost 1000 of you following me at this point.

I don& #39;t do much aside from sadpost and retweet and I personally want to do more.

I& #39;ve had some hard conversations lately and I& #39;ve come to the conclusion that I need to change.

I need to take more risks. I don& #39;t believe in an afterlife and as a consequence that means that if I don& #39;t want to regret not doing anything in my life then I actually have to do things.

I have to learn whether I like things or not and I have to build an identity for myself.

A friend told me that I& #39;m "entrenched" in my trauma. I think it& #39;s worse. I& #39;d say that I& #39;m *calcified* in it.

I need to learn how to grow without harming myself with guilt, fear, and regret. It& #39;s way too easy to tell myself that I have immutable negative properties.

Part of the risk that I& #39;m taking will be fucking up publicly. With more people paying attention to me I& #39;ll be increasing the risk anyway.

I& #39;ve watched people I admire fuck up, turn themselves around, learn, and continue on. There& #39;s a right way to recover from fucking up.

There will still be sadposting and euphoria posting.

I hope you all like who I& #39;m going to be. I still need to figure it out. But some of you might not. And I have to be okay with that.

Time to start chipping the stone away.

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