Alright so, there's almost 1000 of you following me at this point.
I don't do much aside from sadpost and retweet and I personally want to do more.
I've had some hard conversations lately and I've come to the conclusion that I need to change.
I don't do much aside from sadpost and retweet and I personally want to do more.
I've had some hard conversations lately and I've come to the conclusion that I need to change.
I need to take more risks. I don't believe in an afterlife and as a consequence that means that if I don't want to regret not doing anything in my life then I actually have to do things.
I have to learn whether I like things or not and I have to build an identity for myself.
I have to learn whether I like things or not and I have to build an identity for myself.
A friend told me that I'm "entrenched" in my trauma. I think it's worse. I'd say that I'm *calcified* in it.
I need to learn how to grow without harming myself with guilt, fear, and regret. It's way too easy to tell myself that I have immutable negative properties.
I need to learn how to grow without harming myself with guilt, fear, and regret. It's way too easy to tell myself that I have immutable negative properties.
Part of the risk that I'm taking will be fucking up publicly. With more people paying attention to me I'll be increasing the risk anyway.
I've watched people I admire fuck up, turn themselves around, learn, and continue on. There's a right way to recover from fucking up.
I've watched people I admire fuck up, turn themselves around, learn, and continue on. There's a right way to recover from fucking up.
There will still be sadposting and euphoria posting.
I hope you all like who I'm going to be. I still need to figure it out. But some of you might not. And I have to be okay with that.
Time to start chipping the stone away.
I love you all
I hope you all like who I'm going to be. I still need to figure it out. But some of you might not. And I have to be okay with that.
Time to start chipping the stone away.
I love you all
