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I'm going to share something very personal with you today.
For you. For all of you who are emailing, DMing & - for my few close girlfriends - calling or texting - to share with me your struggles going thru this crazy time.
First of all, I thank you. I acknowledge & appreciate
For you. For all of you who are emailing, DMing & - for my few close girlfriends - calling or texting - to share with me your struggles going thru this crazy time.
First of all, I thank you. I acknowledge & appreciate
the trust it takes to open up to another is huge & more so in this industry.
See, if we're really honest, we'll tell you we've all been back-stabbed by those we thought were our closest friends here. And if we're brutally honest? Well . . .
See, if we're really honest, we'll tell you we've all been back-stabbed by those we thought were our closest friends here. And if we're brutally honest? Well . . .
Well, if we're brutally honest, we'll tell you we've all spoken ill about another in our field.
Because we have. ALL of us. Just like you've spoken ill about the co-worker you can't stand or the nosy neighbor or the boss you hate, we have those people & situations in our lives.
Because we have. ALL of us. Just like you've spoken ill about the co-worker you can't stand or the nosy neighbor or the boss you hate, we have those people & situations in our lives.
Just like your situations change, our situations change.
One day we may be the closest of friends. The next day we may be telling someone else how fake THEY are. Imagine that. As we sit & speak those words.
I know. I've done it. And I will admit I've done it.
So thank you.
One day we may be the closest of friends. The next day we may be telling someone else how fake THEY are. Imagine that. As we sit & speak those words.
I know. I've done it. And I will admit I've done it.
So thank you.
Thanks 4 the trust you've placed in me.
I will return the favor w truth, despite the fact I expect quite a bit of judgment in return. It may not be spoken HERE, but you better believe it will be behind my back. To those of u who choose to do so? Have fun.
Why this background?
I will return the favor w truth, despite the fact I expect quite a bit of judgment in return. It may not be spoken HERE, but you better believe it will be behind my back. To those of u who choose to do so? Have fun.
Why this background?
It's important. The fact is that ALL of us go through turmoil. ALL of us behave badly. ALL of us can rise to the occasion. ALL of us.
What I hope we learn to leave behind is the judgment.
*Deep breath. Exhale* Here we go . . .
What I hope we learn to leave behind is the judgment.
*Deep breath. Exhale* Here we go . . .
I grew up with nothing but privilege. There were nannies, gardeners, full-time staff. I'll leave it at that. I always smile inside when a gent comments about my knowledge of a certain piece of classical music or how to use an escargot fork or how to invest in futures.
Apparently
Apparently
Someone doing what I do couldn't possibly come from where I come from.
I get it. I get the judgments. I was raised w them. I understand them first-hand. I know how disgusting, filthy & uneducated SWs are. I mean, that's what I was told, right? By all I knew.
WHO would do THAT?
I get it. I get the judgments. I was raised w them. I understand them first-hand. I know how disgusting, filthy & uneducated SWs are. I mean, that's what I was told, right? By all I knew.
WHO would do THAT?
Oh my word the judgments. It's funny to look back & realize just how many men I must've known who used SWs behind closed doors & spoke ill about them publicly.
But I digress.
I made some unfortunate choices in my life. I take full responsibility for them. I also . . .
But I digress.
I made some unfortunate choices in my life. I take full responsibility for them. I also . . .
I also made great choices & I take full responsibility for them as well.
All of my choices resulted in a free-fall from grace.
I found myself homeless. From the top of the 1% to homeless. From a FT cook to not knowing what I was going to eat. IF I was going to eat.
All of my choices resulted in a free-fall from grace.
I found myself homeless. From the top of the 1% to homeless. From a FT cook to not knowing what I was going to eat. IF I was going to eat.
No one - NO ONE - from my previous life thought I'd make it. I'd either crawl back and beg for forgiveness or die on the streets. But there was no way in hell I'd make it.
But I did.
No, I'll never be wealthy. Most of us won't, actually. Would you like to know the definition?
But I did.
No, I'll never be wealthy. Most of us won't, actually. Would you like to know the definition?
Super wealth is defined as $50M or more in net worth.
No, I'll never get to that. LOL.
But I am comfortable. Most importantly, I'm comfortable w myself.
I didn't do it alone. None of us do, really. My BFF since I'm 11 was there 4 me despite having nothing herself.
No, I'll never get to that. LOL.
But I am comfortable. Most importantly, I'm comfortable w myself.
I didn't do it alone. None of us do, really. My BFF since I'm 11 was there 4 me despite having nothing herself.
She offered me a room to stay in 4 free when she figured out I was homeless. No, I hadn't told anyone.
I can never repay that friend. Never.
I've done everything 1 can do to earn $, including waiting tables & cleaning toilets. I've sucked off bosses who forced me into corners.
I can never repay that friend. Never.
I've done everything 1 can do to earn $, including waiting tables & cleaning toilets. I've sucked off bosses who forced me into corners.
I've been physically attacked. I've been threatened w my life.
I know the streets. Well. And I was baptized by fire. Believe that. This girl can now live in a penthouse or a gutter and get by. You can take that to the bank.
I do. Every. Damn. Day.
I know the streets. Well. And I was baptized by fire. Believe that. This girl can now live in a penthouse or a gutter and get by. You can take that to the bank.
I do. Every. Damn. Day.
My journey has taught me it's the COMMUNITY who saves us all. It's the community HERE who brought me to almost 19k followers in 1 year DESPITE having been shadow-banned more months than not on this ridiculous platform.
The community did that. Not me.
The community taught me
The community did that. Not me.
The community taught me
how to screen & how to stay safe. It was the community who taught me how to love myself.
For all those high-end therapists I've seen, SEX WORK is what taught me to love myself & what taught me to love others. Unconditionally.
What's so strange is that sex workers are the 1st
For all those high-end therapists I've seen, SEX WORK is what taught me to love myself & what taught me to love others. Unconditionally.
What's so strange is that sex workers are the 1st
to judge one another. They are. It's horrible.
We can't stand someone who makes more money than we do. We start gossiping about them. We despise women we think are too beautiful. Jealousy is the true bitch.
We can't just respect them for who they are and what they do as if
We can't stand someone who makes more money than we do. We start gossiping about them. We despise women we think are too beautiful. Jealousy is the true bitch.
We can't just respect them for who they are and what they do as if
their "privileges" didn't make them earn anything. We somehow think we deserve what they have. For what, I don't know. But we think that.
We look down upon those who offer 30 min appointments or don't have certain photo shoots or professional websites. A STREET WALKER? NOT ME!
We look down upon those who offer 30 min appointments or don't have certain photo shoots or professional websites. A STREET WALKER? NOT ME!
We look down upon people who wear red-bottomed shoes or display certain parts of their body or, or, or.
We're so busy looking down at everyone that we can't get ahead. See, in order to get ahead, you have to look UP. You have to look IN FRONT of you.
Do you know what I've
We're so busy looking down at everyone that we can't get ahead. See, in order to get ahead, you have to look UP. You have to look IN FRONT of you.
Do you know what I've
been through in my life? Did you know my first blow job was at 4 years old? No joke, I'm afraid. My babysitter went on to become a male priest.
I'll leave that where it is.
Do you have a clue what I endured while living in a palace?
No, you do not. And I don't know what you
I'll leave that where it is.
Do you have a clue what I endured while living in a palace?
No, you do not. And I don't know what you
I don't know what you have endured in your life.
But I know you have. We all have. ALL. OF. US.
So if we could stop the judgments 4 a moment & start being a real community? Well, I guarantee you we can get through this & anything else life has to throw our way.
But I know you have. We all have. ALL. OF. US.
So if we could stop the judgments 4 a moment & start being a real community? Well, I guarantee you we can get through this & anything else life has to throw our way.
Community. Compassion. Kindness. Self-love.
THAT is the message of today & every day.
I don't know it all 4 sure. But I damn well know what I know. Most of what I know I earned the hard way.
Help each other. Help yourself. Stop looking down. It's beneath you.
Love to all.
THAT is the message of today & every day.
I don't know it all 4 sure. But I damn well know what I know. Most of what I know I earned the hard way.
Help each other. Help yourself. Stop looking down. It's beneath you.
Love to all.
