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2 years of housemanship has come to an end
But things might be different if I didn't quit my housemanship few years back
2 years of housemanship has come to an end
But things might be different if I didn't quit my housemanship few years back
Yes. You read it right. I was one of the first batch contract HOs back then.
It was in the end of the year 2016 when I worked as a contract house officer in Hospital Sultanah Nora Ismail, Batu Pahat, Johor.
It was in the end of the year 2016 when I worked as a contract house officer in Hospital Sultanah Nora Ismail, Batu Pahat, Johor.
It was hard for sure. What did you expect? I didn't like being in a medical field since the first year of medical school. Told my parents to quit but they held me back. Sometimes I felt that I lost 5-6 years of my youth being in nowhere.
I passed my first posting (Surgical) without getting extension. It was so hard. Even though I passed, but I never feel satisfied. Something didn't seem to click.
But when it comes to the very next posting (O&G), this was where it's ended.
But when it comes to the very next posting (O&G), this was where it's ended.
I think I cannot stand the way certain MOs and Midwives act or "teach" us. Why the need to raise your voices? Why you had to belittle somebody? Why were you using harsh words?
These cultures really needs to end.
These cultures really needs to end.
I used to come back home every night to cry. Even when I told my parents about my problems, they just heard but never listened. I used to blame them for putting me into this hell. For me, housemanship is just another prison I have to live for next 2 years.
10 May 2017
I did something unimaginable. I sent a 24-hour notice of my resignation letter. That's it. I cannot take it anymore.
For all the hardships I went through during medical school, I felt like I threw away my future just like that.
I did something unimaginable. I sent a 24-hour notice of my resignation letter. That's it. I cannot take it anymore.
For all the hardships I went through during medical school, I felt like I threw away my future just like that.
Things getting harder few months after that. My mom never spoke to me for 1-2 months. She's being disappointed as expected. My dad was realistic. Even though he did gave some advices but I know deep down he was disappointed too.
I went to KL right after that, searching for myself, searching for my soul. My sister and her husband used to take care of me while in KL. I tried to find jobs but all the interviews that I have been attending told me the same thing
"You are over qualified"
"You are over qualified"
I mean come on man. What's that supposed to mean? What's wrong when someone having a medical degree doing an odd job for a living?
At one point, I started to give up chasing my dreams. In the end, I have to follow what the community decides me to do. I lost my battle.
At one point, I started to give up chasing my dreams. In the end, I have to follow what the community decides me to do. I lost my battle.
People said family is everything. True friends are not common. They are on your side when you are in difficult situations. Yes indeed!
Advices were given. I started to see things in different perspectives. It's not the end of the world. Everything happened for a reason.
Advices were given. I started to see things in different perspectives. It's not the end of the world. Everything happened for a reason.
It was in October 2017 when I finally decided to re-apply back into housemanship. Yeah I know. Some people would said "dah ludah jilat balik", but I don't know, somehow I felt that my parents won't forgive for what I did in the past. And this is the only way to win them back.
With a heavy heart, I re-applied. Although I know it's against my wish and against my dreams, but I won't break my parents' hearts again.
It's all about loving your parents after all.
It's all about loving your parents after all.
In the end, I got accepted to work as a houseman for the second time in HUKM. This was a second chance I shouldn't regret.
From the very first of medical posting to the very last of ED posting, I survived!
I know I still lack of knowledge even until now.
From the very first of medical posting to the very last of ED posting, I survived!
I know I still lack of knowledge even until now.
But hey, looking back. It's not bad at all.
If I didn't quit, I won't know who will be there for me in my hardest situation
If I didn't quit, I may be a slacker, took things for granted
If I didn't quit, I won't know my true friends
If I didn't quit, I won't meet my wife
If I didn't quit, I won't know who will be there for me in my hardest situation
If I didn't quit, I may be a slacker, took things for granted
If I didn't quit, I won't know my true friends
If I didn't quit, I won't meet my wife
And that's when you realized God has everything to do with us
Be it something you didn't like or something you didn't want, but in the end you will see the rainbows right?
Don't compare your chapter 1 with other's chapter 5. For God's sake, life is not a race, man
Be it something you didn't like or something you didn't want, but in the end you will see the rainbows right?
Don't compare your chapter 1 with other's chapter 5. For God's sake, life is not a race, man
Life is where you have your ups and downs. Try to look everything in a positive ways.
When something didn't go in your way, always remember that it's not the end of the world.
Life is too short to worry, man. Put life some meaning.
When something didn't go in your way, always remember that it's not the end of the world.
Life is too short to worry, man. Put life some meaning.
That's what happened to me a few years back.
Things would be different if I didn't quit I supposed, but hey.... It's not bad after all.
And the rest is history......
Things would be different if I didn't quit I supposed, but hey.... It's not bad after all.
And the rest is history......
Happy Ramadhan Kareem to everyone.
Stay home and stay safe.
We will win this fight for sure.
Stay home and stay safe.
We will win this fight for sure.
